Why is chinese so hard?

I had my first day of school yesterday. It was totally intimidating. I was put in the class that uses, Practical Audio and Visual Chinese book 3. Kinda hard shit. Of course no one i know is in class with me, and we are all at different levels. Yesterday I couldn't write 因为 yeah, thats how much I suck right now. But, other than that class was good, difficult, but good. I'm always like three steps behind everyone else. I'll understand it, but it might take me a minute or two. HA. So I will be the retard of the class, I'm the only American so no one to take the heat off me. Traditional Characters are stupid pieces of shit, and no one will change my mind on that. So is Bopomofo, or at least my supplementary class about it is. I can't tell how hard its going to be yet. Hopefully I'll figure that out before the class change period is over. I have a quiz tomorrow, sighh:::

In other news, I won an autographed picture of Thomas Dekker a.k.a John Connor!!I hope its of him as John Connor after he cut his emo hair. Either way the fangirl! is excited!!!

Oh, more john news. The girl came and got her fish(my john). I was pretty sad, but my friend said he would take care of my fish when i leave so maybe i will get some fish!